How to be happy ?

This is not a self-help article , this is a very selfish , self retrospective , externally critical article ,which could very easily offend you considerably. If , like me , you have a weak psyche , I advise against proceeding further . For the , uh , strong hearted ( whatever that means, because how well your heart pumps blood hardly affects how well you can handle what I’m going to write) we shall forge ahead on a path never before established. I’m not sure what has altered my consciousness the most , the downright destruction of my academic standing or all the hanging around people who laugh at ‘he CAME’ jokes. Its a surprise to me,myself, that a weak thing like me , filled with squishy things manages to get up every morning , and breaks out into a smile when it sees the sun.

First of all , I’m homesick . I miss you Bangalore , all your restaurants and everything else.I’d never ever thought I’d be forced to admit that to myself , albeit everyone else. Food somehow tops my list of things I really really want more of . I don’t mean some forgettable food I gulp down to survive, I mean , food that makes me feel like I’m on cloud 9 , like there’s nothing better , an indescribable high. I need to go to more restaurants . I want to experience a place which gives me food that’s a feast for all the senses , flavourful and aromatic , and looking better than the most beautiful girl(kind of shows you where I rate what on my list of important things ) .

And then its over. And you wonder the sensibility in buying another 1000 rupee dish . Now this is what I don’t want , I don’t want to be sensible. With a world filled with critics and idiots (hard to differentiate) it’s very tough to explain you don’t want to be sensible . Nature is a mean mean female , forcing you to behave however it seems right to her , without letting you really design things in your own fashion . It’s impossible to break out from under her clutches, its like denying your very humanity , something I would love to do . As I already mentioned, I am NOT ‘gaga’ about humanity and the way things work in society.

‘A life unexamined is a life not worth living’- Socrates . So examine and re-examine until you are satisfied with how things stand , YOU, and not someone else should be satisfied.

My last and final way to be happy is the most (well to my friends it would seems so at least) senseless. I want to study . Its the simplest way I’ll feel more happy , nothing can possibly raise my spirit  the way knowing more can make me feel . That was why my 12th was so jubilant despite the obvious consequences from all the exams .
I sincerely hope all this works . No one’s saying that you cant screw up your life, you have the sole right to do so , but remember that when you retrospect after 20 years , you might not feel so satisfied. So do what feels good now , and what WILL , even after 20 years .

New thoughts…

“Enjoy your life cAuse u aiN‘t gonna get out of it Alive”

Steve Jobs emphasized oN always living your life as though each Day is your last.. Because he understood the meaning each day had. He’d gone on the path of death and managed to veer off from it before cancer took his life. Life is short no ? I mean ok we get say 70 years on Earth .. in those 70 years some ISRO who had came to our school ,said the amount of useful time we hav is less than a tenth of out lives… Im not too sure on those statistics though.. In that much time how many of us actually do something useful to humanity or the Earth ? How many of us have felt that we’ve truly lived our life ?

Is life worth living if u dont actually live but just survive ? Should we choose to end our life if we  just survive ? Or should we think that we would be selfish to do that .. that we’d hurt those near and dear to us too much if we did that… I guess it would be better to end the purposeless struggle and the monotony that sets in ,in some peoples lives..

But think of the parents of that person who chose to end his life because he felt was of no use to the world and that he was only an embarrassment … I weep for that person … He didn’t deserve such a life.. But he could have made a conscious choice to change and never go back to who he was .. At least those ‘ near and dear ones ‘ could choose to understand what was happening in that guy’s mind.. You can’t just blame someone without thought.. Its like condemning someone to jail without knowing the case…

Suicide is not the modicum of the weak … it is the mode of communication of the powerful .. At least for some.. They choose to say that im not going to do this anymore.. im not going to let these people suffer because of me anymore… These people are martyrs to their line of thought… For many though … Its only a mode of escape .. These people are weak .. But we should always remember that even we were weak when we were kids .. These people who are weak could grow.. Unlike kids ..they wont grow in the body but in the mind…

In the US a novel project called the ‘Yellow ribbon project’ was started a few years back.. It tells those who feel they should commit suicide to just talk about it..There are people ready to listen to them..Its saved thousands of lives to date..

I know i contradicted myself several times in the article .. But its because i dont no wat to think now…Something happened that confused me..And made me wonder whether this life is worth living for those people who no they arent doing anything with the gift of life given to them ..For anyone who has thought of suicide..Remember that you werent brought to life so you could kill yourself..You dont no wats on the other side either so .. Just think about it..  Life might just be better… 🙂

That advert which says “its your life .. live it large” (Seagrams or something)..Makes so much sense..